Waiting and Waiting...

In Buffalo, visiting friends. About to go party...buuuut they're taking forever to get ready! At least we all look hot (; -- slut dancing anyone? Hahah

Music & Love

Instead of going to a crazy wild party and slut dancing at Sunny's, I went to my room mate's concert Saturday night. And it was well worth it! (I never liked slut dancing anyway...lol).

I was so happy that I decided to go to this concert. The orchestra played the most beautiful music and it left me flabbergasted by how amazingly talented our school is. It almost brought tears to my eyes while listening. The first piece they played was called Carnival composed by Dvojak (spelling?). Most amazing piece I have ever heard. The first note they played made my mouth drop! I couldn't at all explain how I felt the SECOND I heard them play. All I was able to say was "wow".

I was on the verge of crying because watching everyone up on the stage playing music made me really miss music. I used to be a part of the musicals and I used to be up on that stage singing and dancing my ass off! I used to complain to my friends about how I never had time for anything because rehearsals took up ALL of my time. Watching the performance made me really think of how much I loved what I did, and it made me realize how little I'm doing now in college. What am I doing with myself!? I expected myself to be much more involved on campus, but I'm not! I guess it had to do with me deciding to be lazy the first semester, but why did I decide that? Why am I allowing myself to rot away on campus? Jeez. This sucks.

But what also brought the tears to my eyes was the fact that the whole orchestra on stage really loved what they were doing, being music majors and all. Otherwise, they wouldn't be slaving off every last minute of their lives rehearsing. One person I want to point out is my room mate Jenna. She is so dedicated to her love for music. As me and her boyfriend sat in the audience Saturday night, watching her fiddle with her clarinet (she had to keep changing keys), we agreed that we didn't think we knew anyone, including ourselves, who loves music as much as she does. There is nothing at all we love that can compare to how much she loves music. She is literally practicing every minute she can, dedicating her life to music. She's in the University choir, SECOND chair in the Wind Ensemble, and she's in the orchestra. She might even be in some mysterious secret society for music players on campus that I don't know about because she is constantly not in the room! Her poor calendar is always full and I really wish she could take a chill pill, or smoke some "you know" to calm down. But I know she won't. She loves music and won't smoke anything that might affect her playing. I honestly admire her for loving music so much. I love it too, but I don't know how I would be able to stand it if I had her kind of schedule. Jenna Witterman, YOU are my hero<3.

Anyway, going to the concert was definitely the best decision I have made on campus. I would trade a crazy night out and slut dancing ANYTIME to hear wonderfully beautiful music.

Ice Cold

Winter is here, and it sucks major ass. Especially since it's supposed to be fall! Someone PLEASE tell me why it's in the 30's right now. I'm freezing my buttocks off!

I realized, thanks to all my facebook friend statuses, that everyone is complaining about the weather. So I might as well join them since it's seriously Ice cold. I'm just waiting for the snow to start floating down any minute now.

Seriously though? In the 30's already? I remember when October was such a wonderful month full of gorgeous crisp fall days. Chillier, but still sunny. I remember sweating balls underneath my Halloween mask, trying to grab whatever candy I could get. *sigh, what happened?

The trees up here are changing colors and it's so pretty in the sun, but today is just killing me because of the freezing air. I guess I had to know it was coming though, moving so far upstate. I'm just still not ready for it at all. If I'm like this during the fall, what am I going to do in the winter?! I'm just not going to be able to survive. I can see myself freezing to death. I'm going to be stuck in a glacier! Oh Horror!

Hello, Bambi

There's this beautiful spot that's just across the street from the campus. It's literally a forest that's just there and when you go deeper in, there's a creek. It's just such a gorgeous spot, and it's totally isolated from the street and from campus and campus police. With that said, obviously, this is where everyone goes to smoke their "Haha" (lol). We call this spot the Creek.

Well, yesterday me and my friends decided "creek it" and there's this dirt passageway with weeds everywhere. Anyway, when you look out there's like this huge pasture of grass. It's just like a huge open field in the middle of the forest. It's really a beautiful thing to see, I'm really actually enjoying this nature stuff nowadays. So, when we were passing by yesterday, what do I see prancing around? DEERS! Like two of them!

I mean, I've seen deers before. I've seen a bunch of them. But they were mostly when I took tours to national parks or something. Like this summer, I went to the Yellowstone National Park and I was basically face to face with a deer. But still, it's a national park AND we were on a tour so it really didn't feel as natural to see deer just lying around. Now, I see them when I'm just walking around, going over to the creek, and they're so close. I find it truly amazing and exciting.

I'm a city girl, so obviously I don't see this in the city. There are not enough trees and grass in the city to tend to families of deer. My friends kept making fun of me because I just kept pointing them out. They just don't understand how I felt seeing actual nature, it was just so organic. I was just so amazed, and was literally in a trance. I would have stood there watching them for hours if I could.

Nature is so pretty. :)
...besides the gross muddy puddles in the middle of the passageway. The ones I accidentally stepped in. Ugh.

Where's the Money?

For the past six weeks, I've been doing so well with money. Now, all of a sudden I realize I'm going broke! This makes me extremely annoyed. I really dislike not having money, I didn't think I'd experience this in college but I am. Obviously, that's the college student's life!

I hate not having a job! I've been working for the past 4 years, and sure I do love the fact that I'm so free and have nothing to worry about (except for school work) but it's kinda odd. I'm living off my mother's money once again, and it's really not fun. I got used to just buying whatever I needed or wanted knowing that next week I will get my bi-weekly paycheck. That apparently is not happening anymore. Today was the day I realized that I'm broke, and I can't take money out of my college account (I actually have a lot of money on that account).

I guess it's all my fault though. Recently, I've been doing a lot of shopping for no reason at all, except that I've been shopping deprived. Now, I'm not shopping deprived, instead I'm money deprived. Oh man, I really must find a job somewhere!

I wish I had something better to write about rather than ranting about my money problems, but unfortunately nothing else has been going on. But hey, something new. They put up a new "Toilet Talk" for the month of October! It's on green paper. I don't know, I guess I would have went for maybe an orange for Halloween, or pink for Breast Cancer Awareness month, but that's just me.

That's all for now. Hopefully, I'll find a solution to this problem... I might have to talk to the madre really soon. Oh no! :[